Looking the other half of me…

Year by Year… Month by Month… Day by Day… Hours by Hours… Minutes by Minutes… Second by Seconds have already passed by for almost 24 years. Yet still I can’t even search and find the other half of me… Who are you and Where are you? What are you doing lately? Are happy or sad? Are you having enjoyment in every second of your life or Are you feeling frustrated of yourself right now? Honestly, I do keep searching for him but still I can’t even find him. I searched until the pieces by pieces of my HEART keep on broken because of those wrong men that come in and out as they want to. Honestly, it’s HURT.


I once stop looking for him but in the end I am the one who feels so LONELY and yeah! Even now I am so Lonely… I need someone to express my feeling and share my stories and so even him. I would like to listen stories from him and share our feelings towards each other. I am looking for my other half until sometime it’s beyond my levels. I am stuck and I did not even know what to do.


Certain people will say, “Just stay and wait…” but until when I should wait? Until I am getting old and die? Some people said I should be patient. But… Until when should I be patient? And one more problem that runs into me. I am too scared to open my heart to other man that comes into my life. I am sorry… I think this is the problem that I am facing right now. It’s not about other person problem. It’s coming from me itself. I really want to find my other half but on the other hand, I am so scared to open my HEART to others. I am too SCARED from what has happened to me before. 

I am the type of person that always gives LOVE to the person that came into my life more that I should and in the end, I am the one who suffered more and live in sorrow day by day, month by month even year by year. It’s not that I don’t even have any initiative to even change my life and personality. I do changed it but in the end… I am SORRY… I can’t. Chommal Mianeyo… Na Mottae!!!

I had given my full commitment on my changes but in the end… I’ve cried because I can’t even change myself, my personality. It doesn’t fit me.

To my other half,

No matter where you are… What you do… Please… Jeballeyo… I am begging you to come and help me. Niga Pillyohae… I really really need you… I hope you can change me for the better person. I really really need your love and protection. I am sorry… May be I do look like desperate but I need you to come and save me because I can’t even be strong anymore. I can’t even stand up as usual. I have lost my confidence. I have lost my spirit and my soul is kinda empty… MY OTHER HALF… PLEASE… HELP ME…

NURUL SYAZWANI BT SOHAHUDDIN

23 APRIL 2012 11:07PM 

Starbuck Hangul Tumbler's Translation... :)

Based on last two posted of mine about Starbuck Hangul's Tumbler and Mug, must be those who didn't understand Hangul alphabet keep on thinking what is the meaning of it. Am I right, my dearies? So, here is the translation of it. It's taken from Hangul Script from ancient named Hunmin Jeongeum. For those who really understand Hangul especially Korean citizen... Please do correct me if i am wrong,ok? Below is the picture of Ancient Hangul Hunmin Jeongeun taken from Korean Museum in Seoul and follows by the translation.

"Because the national language is different from that of China, it [spoken language] doesn't match [Chinese] letters. Therefore, when the ignorant want to communicate, many of them cannot achieve their intentions. Because I am saddened by this, I have newly made 28 letters. It is my intention that everybody learn the letters easily so that they can conveniently use them everyday.~ Hunmin Jeongeum."


How nice if we do really can understand Hangul... I wish I could understand more than everyone do... Till then, Take care... Please do leave your comments here. So that I can communication with all my dearies out there...

Love,
Alexa Lee.
Thursday 12.04.2012 9:04am

2AM – 너도 나처럼 (I Wonder If You Hurt Like Me) lyrics [Hangeul, Romanization & Translation]

2AM - 너도 나처럼 (Neodo Nacheoreom/I Wonder If You Hurt Like Me)

 하루종일 니 생각만 하다가
 Ha-ru-jong-il ni saeng-gak-man ha-da-ga 

한 가닥 눈물이 멋대로 주르륵 흐른다
 Han ga-dak nun-mul-i meot-dae-ro ju-reu-reuk heu-reun-da

 걸음걸음 니 모습이 밟혀서
 Geol-eum-geol-eum ni mo-seub-i balb-hyeo-seo

 일을 하다가도 나도 모르게 또 흐른다
 Il-eul ha-da-ga-do na-do mo-reu-ge ddo heu-reun-da

 (우후후후후) 노래를 불러도
 (U-hu-hu-hu-hu) no-rae-reul bul-leo-do 

(우후후후후) 거리를 걸어도
 (U-hu-hu-hu-hu) geo-ri-reul geol-eo-do

 (우후후후후) 온통 니 생각 뿐인데
 (U-hu-hu-hu-hu) On-tong ni saeng-gak bbun-in-de

 너도 나처럼 이렇게 아픈지
 Neo-do na-cheo-reom i-reoh-ge a-peun-ji

 너도 나처럼 눈물 나는지
 Neo-do na-cheo-reom nun-mul na-neun-ji

 너도 하루종일 이렇게 추억에 사는지 꼭 나처럼 
Neo-do ha-ru-jong-il i-reoh-ge chu-eok-e sa-neun-ji gook na-cheo-reom

 억지라도 웃을 일 참 많은데
 Eok-ji-ra-do us-eul il cham manh-eun-de

 태엽 인형처럼 주어진 일처럼 웃는다 
Tae-yeob in-hyeong-cheo-reom ju-eo-jin il-cheo-reom ut-neun-da

 (우후후후후) TV를 보아도 (
O-hu-hu-hu-hu) TV-reul bo-a-do

 (우후후후후) 친구를 만나도
 (O-hu-hu-hu-hu) chin-gu-reul man-na-do

 (우후후후후) 온통 니 생각 뿐인데
 (O-hu-hu-hu-hu) on-tong ni saeng-gak bbun-in-de

 너도 나처럼 이렇게 아픈지
 Neo-do na-cheo-reom i-reoh-ge a-peun-ji 

너도 나처럼 눈물 나는지
 Neo-do na-cheo-reom nun-mul na-neun-ji

 너도 하루종일 이렇게 추억에 사는지 꼭 나처럼 
Neo-do ha-ru-jong-il i-reoh-ge chu-eok-e sa-neun-ji ggok na-cheo-reom

 매일을 웃으니까
 Mae-il-eul us-eu-ni-gga

 웃는 모습만 보여주니까 내가 행복한 줄만 아나 봐
 Ut-neun mo-seub-man bo-yeo-ju-ni-gga nae-ha haeng-bok-han jul-man a-ni bwa

 어떻게 웃어 내가 어떻게 웃어 니가 없는데
 Eo-ddeoh-ge us-eo na-ega eo-ddeoh-ge us-eo-ni-ga eobs-neun-de

 웃어도 웃어도 눈물이 또 흘러
 Us-eo-do us-eo-do nun-mul-i ddo heul-leo

 너도 나처럼 이렇게 아픈지
 Neo-do na-cheo-reom i-reoh-ge a-peun-ji 

너도 나처럼 눈물 나는지
 Neo-do na-cheo-reom nun-mul na-neun-ji

 너도 하루종일 이렇게 추억에 사는지 꼭 나처럼 
Neo-do ha-ru-jong-il i-reoh-ge chu-eok-e sa-neun-ji ggok na-cheo-reom

 Translation 
 As I think only of you all day

A single stream of tear flows on its own Step by step,

I see you So even as I work,

tears flow without me knowing

 Even when I sing Even when I walk the streets

I’m filled with thoughts of you

 I wonder if you hurt like me

 I wonder if you cry like me I wonder if you live all day in memories like me

 There are many things to laugh about forcibly

Like a wind-up doll, like it’s my job,

I laugh Even when I watch TV

 Even when I meet my friends

I’m filled with thoughts of you

 I wonder if you hurt like me

I wonder if you cry like me

 I wonder if you live all day in memories like me

 Because I smile every day

Because I show my smiles,

They think I am happy

But how can I smile,

how can I smile without you I smile

and I smile but tears flow again...

Alexa Lee
05.04.2012 Thurday 12:13PM

Shinhwa: Share Stories & Make You Laugh on Radio Star

Veteran group Shinhwa were recently on MBC “Radio Star.” The members shared a story about Eric’s (leader) habits when drunk, which made me laugh so hard:

 “there was a time when he got drunk and took off all his clothes…Eric was drunk so I took him home but while I was washing up, he took off all his clothes and ran outside. While naked he ran up and down the stairs of our apartment.” -Dongwan “I ran away so I would not get caught by him, but I ran bare foot and tore up my feet. He found me by following the trail of my blood.” -Eric

 Then Junjin talked about his father Charlie Park (singer) and his debt:

 “It was hard repaying my father’s debts..It’s not debt that happened because he did something wrong. The situation just wasn’t good… Now he is working hard.…My father is currently preparing to be active as a singer again. He might be releasing an album under our agency.” – Junjin

 And also Andy (helped produce Teen Top) talked about his regret in giving Teen Top permission to date publicly (funny):

 “I told them they can do whatever they’d like after winning #1. Because I said that, I feel like my head is going to explode” – Andy

 Eric (helped produce Stellar) talked about Stellar’s dating: I don’t oppose them dating publicly, but since they are all still very young, I want to do as their parents say.”

And So, Shinhwa make their own comeback with "VENUS" as their single HIT...

Alexa Lee
05.04.2012 Thursday 11:51AM

Nichkhun with his Thai Movie...

Nickhun will appear in a Thai movie. According to JYP Entertainment, Nichkhun is currently filming his first movie for GTH’s 7th anniversary project. The film is divided into three episodes of three different stories about life and love. Nichkhun will play in one of these episodes as a main support character who help the main character to search the meaning of life and love.

 GTH, the biggest movie production company in Thailand, is well known to korea with movies such as “Phobia 2”, “Hello Stranger”, and “Bangkok Traffic Love Story”. Nichkhun says, “My dream was to be an actor, so I am trying my best in this project. I also feel that acting in front of the camera as actor is so different from standing in front of the camera as a singer. The movie is expected to be released in later half of the year.

 Source: JYP Entertainment

Alexa Lee
05.04.2012 Thursday 11:21AM

Starbuck Hangul Tumblers and Mug part 2 …

Assamualaikum Peeps,

Based on my last post about Starbuck Hangul Tumblers and Mug, Alhamdulillah… Today, one person that I really blessed to know and I just met through her blog Zarina Jani http://budgettravel2korea.blogspot.com/ willingly to help me to buy those tumblers and a mug that I do searching for them for almost 3 months. Can u peeps imagine that? I was so blessed and I feel that ALLAH hear my prayer each day everytime I search those Starbucks tumbler and mug. Kak Zarina have already bought it for me and will post it once she get back from Korea. Such a Happy of Mine… Alhamdulillah… I was really2 thanks to ALLAH…

 To Kak Zarina, Thank a lot for helping to fulfill my dreams to have those tumblers and mug. I do really want it so much. Its hard to find it because from what I found, those products can only be find only in SOUTH KOREA… You light up my day, Kakak… I’ll wait for you each day until you coming back to Malaysia. ^^

Till Then...

NURUL SYAZWANI SOHAHUDDIN
4/4/2012 WEDNESDAY 14:59PM

Word Journey of Penguin...

Penguin may come from the Welsh pen (white) and gwyn (head), even though penguins have black heads. In fact,"Penguin" was first used for the Newfoundland Great Auk, before it was applied to what we think of as penguins - Greak Auks also have black heads.

Other explanations include the Latin pinguis (fat) amd pin-wing, referring to the bird's rudimentary wings. But the Welsh derivation is the most likely - an unobservant birdwatcher is to be blame.

NURUL SYAZWANI SOHAHUDDIN
02.04.2012 MONDAY 16:22PM

Floating Market, Hua Hin,Thailand... XD

This picture is totally long time ago and I saw it in Nickhun's Twitter if not mistaken around last year,may be? So, today all of sudden, my head keep on spinning like gasing and last night after I dreamed about my one and only NICKHUN BUCK HORVEJKUL, I've decided to share with you peeps on Hua Hin Floating Boat at Bangkok, Thailand XD

Hua Hin has two new floating markets. The first is Hua Hin Floating Market and is located on 40-ral plot and the second is Hua Hin Sam Phan Nam Floating Market is located on 100-rai plot. Both are close to each other on Soi Hua Hin 112, a short drive from Hua Hin Centre.

Both floating market will offer tourists a number of food and shopping areas with a traditional Siamese theme recalling the days of King Rama V and King Ram VI.


Hua Hin Sam Phan Nam Floating Market will also have a new market section to be built in the style of classical Greek architecture. This section will offer both domestic and international brand name products.

Besides 200 outlets for food and souvenir shops and 40 boats offering hot meals, there will also be performances four times a day and train service that will run inside the projects as well as a reproduction of the well known Hua Hin Railway Station. There will also be outdoor activities such as cable ski service, water screen shows and a paddle boat service to take tourists around the market.


Hua Hin Floating Marker recreates the atmosphere of old Hua Hin with colonial design buildings and will feature more than 130 shops and 30 wooden boats selling hot meals, snacks, and beverages. There will also be local performances three times a day, including an elephant show by Hua Hin Safari.

Hua Hin Sam Phan Nam Floating Market will open daily, 10am-10pm and Hua Hin Floating Market will open every day from 9am-9pm.

So,peeps. Kinda of interesting right? Our favourite Nichkhun have already being there? So, when is our turn? Let's Go!!!

NURUL SYAZWANI SOHAHUDDIN
02.04.2012 MONDAY 13:04PM

Nichkhun in Ouran High School Host Club live action (MUST WATCH!!!)

Nichkhun, a member of the K-pop group 2PM, will soon be making his first appearance in a Japanese movie. He has been added to the cast of the “Ouran High School Host Club” movie, which is scheduled for nationwide release on March 17, 2012.


As reported previously, the TBS drama “Oura High School Host Club” which was aired in this summer will get movie adaptation starring Kawaguchi Haruna and Yamamoto Yusuke, and today on October 16th, it was announced that AKB48 member, Shinoda Mariko will make an appearance in the movie as a spoiled daughter of a rich family.


“Ouran High School Host Club”, which is based off the original manga of the same title, is a romantic comedy centered around the popular host club of the prestigious ‘Ouran High School’, where the female student Haruhi (Kawaguchi) has to disguise herself as a male host, and the movie will show “Haruhi” and the host club’s president, Tamaki (Yamamoto) get into a closer relationship. Shinoda’s role will be an international student from Singapore, Michelle, and she will cut in between Haruhi and Tamaki for some kind of plot.
Though Shinoda’s trademark is her short hair, she will appear in long hair by wearing hair extension in the movie. She said bashfully about the long hair, “I look somehow mature. It’s been three years since I last had a long hair, so it feels uncomfortable.” Also Shinoda’s role “Michelle” is set as half Singaporean, half Japanese, so there are scenes that Shinoda speaks English. ”It’s hard. I memorized the lines by reciting them like a charm, but I’m really enjoying the filming. I always burst out laughing with the co-stars.” Shinoda said with a smile.
Upcoming movie “Ouran High School Host Club” is scheduled to be released on March 17th 2012.

It’s been announced that a spin-off drama of “Ouran High School Host Club” will begin distribution as a “LISMO drama” (a mobile drama provied by au). The spin-off is called “Ouran High School Host Club~Haruhi no Happy Birthday Daisakusen~“, and will star Kawaguchi Haruna.
“Ouran High School Host Club” was previously aired as a drama series on TBS from July to September, and it’s become so popular that it will also get a movie adaptation with the same cast members (scheduled to be released on March 17th).
This LISMO drama will tell an original story, whose plot was worked on by the author of the manga, Hatori Bisco. Fans will get to follow a day in the life of the host club members before their impending school festival. Kawaguchi, who plays the protagonist ‘Fujioka Haruhi’, commented, “You will see an explosion of this well-known bright and silly character! It was fun playing the role, and all the host club members enjoyed the filming.” Each episode will be about five minutes long, and there will be four episodes in total.
“Ouran High School Host Club~Haruhi no Happy Birthday Daisakusen~” will begin broadcasting on January 6th, 2012.

NURUL SYAZWANI SOHAHUDDIN
02.04.2012 MONDAY 11:58AM