A place to go…Someday.

Can you see a guy with a bicycle with the background of a bridge up there? Well,guys. This is a place that I want to go to someday and somehow… I don’t know why I should go there but yeah my INSTINCT says that “Hunny, you should go there when you reach SOUTH KOREA someday… at 11pm at night.” I don’t know when should I go there because I haven’t earn any savings yet to go there and I just finished my Degree and my last final result still have not come out yet. Ya ALLAH, i’m really scares with the upcoming result that I really don’t know when it will come out. Swear to GOD that I can’t even breathe in and out properly if I mention about result.




Well, back to our earliest topic above. There were 30 bridges here in Seoul, South Korea and there are three bridges that attracted me were Han River Bridge, Banpo Bridge (second picture) and Incheon Bridge (third bridge). I don’t know why I like them so much but then it attracted me for about half year ago when everybody is going there and there were so many scenes taken there for such Korean Dramas and Movies themselves. Well, for those who are Korean maniacs like me, there should know why my heart really insists to go there for sure.


As one of my friends said, Han River Bridge is so much popular for any Korean Dramas or Movie shooting even for CF too such as HARU2010 where Changmin from TVXQ were the actor on it. (You guys can find it at youtube.com any time). Then, There were also a scene taken there in Cinderella Stepsister that has being played before at KBS2 last year played by Moon Geun Young as Eun Jo and Gi Hoon there and last but not least there were also a scene where Kim Beom played as Yi Jeong in a Samsung Bodyguard HP CF too. See,guys! The place is so POPULAR among popular artist themselves. According to my believable sources, she said that there were 8-9 popular bridges that connect 3 districts at once which are Seoul, Gyeonggi and Incheon. What I mean, the bridges connect three districts at one time…! So cool,right!

As for your information, the one that I wanna go is HAN RIVER BRIDGE but in the end, I also speechless for what I want. Hahaha… Did you guys know why? There 30 bridges of Han River and I didn’t even figure out which bridge that I wanna go to visit yet. Just wait and see what’s gonna happen after 4 years later. Haha… May be Hangang Park would be nice, since Super Junior have done their CF on SEOUL 2010 or may be at Olympic Bridge since it was saying that the bridge is near Incheon International Airport itself. So, it’s easier for me to visits such places.

Should I go to the bridge as it shown in the first picture? Can you guys figure out who is he? Figure it urself, peeps! Will wait for the answer… *MERONG**WINK*
Well, we will decide it later as soon as my results are coming out later, ok? The results will decide for me whether I can go to South Korea or it will be just a BIG TRASH DREAM of a teenage girl all the time for almost 10 years…

X0X0,

HuNNY…

Pieces of my mind trembling…

What does it means actually? Hmm… These days I just keep on thinking of my results. I mean my final part 6 result. I’m scared if I get below 3 pointer then I can’t even get to work as a Police Officer at all and I think it will take many years for me to earn saving for my dream to go to South Korea and be at my favourite bridge at 11pm sharp. What should I do, Ya ALLAH… Just now, I and my family were heading to “POKOK KETAPANG” Restaurant and you guys know what happen? I have expressed my feeling to both parents of mine about what I think about my result and did you guys know what they have said to me? Especially my dad, he said if I get below 3 pointers that mean he never believed that I have study hard for my final? What should I do? I think I have tried my best but then my HR carried marks and my BPR lecturer ways of marking can give SUCH BIG EFFECT on my result.

I can’t even sleep tonight. I can’t even feel comfortable as I did not get my results yet? Ya ALLAH, what if my results are really bad? Then what should I do? Where I gonna start my work? Can I manage to saves so much money for my travelling my dream place? Can I manage my life so well after this? The future is on my results. The result will decide my path of life! Really!!! Swear to my GOD, I didn’t get to go to South Korea, surely I live my life with full of regret and tears. I just wanna go there and feel the air of Seoul. That’s all. I wanna touch the land of Hangul myself. I wanna go there and wait on what’s gonna happen at 11pm at my dream Bridge. Should I said that I’m not gonna get marry until I go to South Korea? Should I do that,peeps?

With the ambiguity of my future, I still can’t even tell myself what gonna happen in front of me later. I can’t even predict what is going to happen to my life, my future and myself. I still did not even figure out the solutions to my future. What should I do and shouldn’t and I still didn’t know what I should plan and not to plan…

Can you guys imagine that, the results bring enormous effect in my life and the result decides my life and the path itself… Ya ALLAH, KAU SAJALAH YANG DAPAT MEMBANTUKU… AKU TAK MAMPU NAK LAKUKAN APA-APA LAGI SELAIN HANYA MAMPU BERDOA… HARAP SEMUANYA BERJALAN LANCAR… AMIN… CERAHKANLAH MASA DEPAN KU… BUKAKANLAH PINTU REZEKI MU PADAKU… MURAHKANLAH REZEKIKU SETIAP HARI… AMIN…AMIN… YA RABBAL A’LAMIN…

X0X0,

HuNNy…

Phase towards my Reminiscences.

Hari berganti hari… Masa berganti masa… Hunny menghitung hari untuk meninggalkan tempat dimana Hunny menuntut segala ilmu dan mengenal apa erti kehidupan dan realiti sebenar dunia. Specifically known as“SERI ISKANDAR,PERAK”. Sudah genap 5 tahun, Hunny di sini dan betul kata pepatah lama “Setiap pertemuan, pasti ada perpisahan…”. Dan itu sudah semestinya. Dulu, masa diploma, masa hari perpisahan, Hunny menangis teresak-esak coz sayang nak tinggalkan kawan-kawan sekolej, sekelas and especially sebilik. Tapi… kini, bila masa degree… Hunny tak dapat nak menitiskan setitis pun air mata untuk sesapa sahaja disini kerana Hunny rasa terlalu banyak kedukaan dari kebahagiaaan. Terlalu banyak kesakitan dari keselesaan. People are truth when they were saying that “L.I.V.E.=E.V.I.L.”. Memang pun. Hunny rasa makin besar dan berusia Hunny, makin jelas kekejaman dunia yang Hunny lihat.


Sehinggakan Hunny takut untuk melihat apa yang terjadi dihadapan Hunny. There is a quote that I have kept since 3 years ago, “YESTERDAY IS A HISTORY, TODAY IS A GIFT AND TOMORROW IS STILL A MYSTERY.SO APPRECIATE IT!” By looking back at this quote, I think that I not gonna believes it again. Yeah, it’s true that yesterday is a history and tomorrow is a mystery but TODAY IS A GIFT???!!! What do they mean by a damn “G.I.F.T.” words? Are the one who invented this quote is crazy enough? I don’t think I even received any gift at all each day? Does it means a GIFT=PROBLEM??? Yeah! Well, it’s damn good if you have said that a gift is equal to a damn fucking problem! So, I think it I shouldn’t hold that quote to be my life principle at all. I’m gonna use “L.I.V.E.=E.V.I.L.” coz there were so many devils around me on this land call EARTH!” Thanks to ALLAH… Alhamdulillah… Although, I have endured so much troubles and pain, ALLAH has sent me THREE BELOVED ANGELS AND GUARDIAN who is my OWN FAMILY MEMBERS!” NADEUL OMMA, APPA AND THE ONE AND ONLY DONGSAENG –Shii. Without them, I who have nothing! Without them, I’m dead! Alone here in SERI ISKANDAR.PERAK!


Alhamdullilah… Thanks to ALLAH once again for sending them to me. During the hardest time, they were the one who always been there for me. Giving full supports and even prays the BEST for me! I don’t even need anyone else LOVE for this! Just LOVE from my GOD is the most important, nadeul omma, appa, and dongsaeng! There were so many tears coming out from my unhealthy eyes. Both UNHEALTHY EYES because of something bad happen to me one year ago and I have to endure the problem till now! During my degree, I have endured so much pain rather than feeling so happy and thought it be the best memories ever! Nope! The happiness I gain during my degree is not enough to call it as the SWETEEST MEMORIES EVER! There are lots of tears and pain rather than happiness. Because of this kind of things, happen to me, makes me become numb. My heart does not even feel any LOVE at all. I have thought much on stereotype on people, I have started not to believe in people; don’t even judge a book by its cover! I HATE LOVE, COUPLE AND EVEN I CAN’T EVEN SEE THE DAMN SHIT “IN RELATIONSHIP” WORDS!

I don’t think that I am ready enough to have any relationship with anyone because of myself. I’m sorry but to say this “NAMJA BABOYEYO”. I have so much pain with LOVE! Until today, I don’t even feel enough what is LOVE towards opposite gender. For one and a half years, I have suffering the most pain in my life ever on LOVE. Then, I taught, I could open my heart to next person but I’m sorry, I can’t. I have tried but the more I’m into the relationship, the more pain I gain! I can’t even feel happiness and the feeling of sacred LOVE like before.

I have tried so hard to forget the sweetness of first love but I can’t! People have said to me “Hunny, each person is different in giving LOVE towards his girl…” but I can’t even feel the love that comes after him. My heart became so NUMB and I do not even feel the same way as I am before. What I feel after that was ANNOYED AND IRRITATING ENOUGH TO CRASH MY FRAGILE HEART!” I tried to pretend that nothing happen, tried to be strong, tried to pretend that I’m strong enough to stand but in my heart, I can’t even face the reality, I can’t even walk straight enough and stand firmly! My hearts broken into pieces as well as my brain does not even working normally. With so much pain, I’ve gain because of LOVE and the pain of reality of life and friendship; I can’t even see the world properly enough. Makes my world turns upside down, makes my pieces of soul fly away easily and makes my heart broken so fragilely. Because of that, I can’t even cry loudly and even screaming highly enough to tell everybody that I’m in pain. Enough to kill the whole world!. You know what, I feel the pain during my writing now but I can’t even cry heavily. My heart just saying that, if I cried or even scream, does anyone come and give their hand to you for favour? The answer is TOTALLY NO!!! ANDWAE!!!


Then what should I do? Should I run away and never return? Should I just end up my life just like a SNAP? Should I kill each of everyone that have irritated and annoyed me ever? Or should I just keep quiet and doing nothing while waiting what’s going to happen? Like I’ve said earlier that TOMORROW IS A MYSTERY? Ya ALLAH… I have enough of this kind of situation. I want HAPPINESS and TRUE LOVE that can give me new spirit of life, new LOVE, new perspective of LIFE, new air for breathing, new friends that does not even know the devil’s word such as BACK STABBING, SELFISH, JEALOUSY AND DOES NOT EVEN KNOW WHAT IS EVIL? Are kind of people exist or I think it would be just ANGEL can feel the same way as I have describe earlier. While writing this, I think, I have decided to keep myself SHUT! I will not interfere in anyone life even once. I do not want to get involves with people’s life, problems and even I don’t want to look back for what I have struggle with. Enough to feel the pain rather than have to endure it once again…

I think, I should stop here… I’ll write to you guys next time. Till then, take care…

X0X0,
HuNNy…