Surat kelapan buatmu Aizat

Assalamulaikum Aizat…

Jat, kali ini Wani menulis dengan perasaan kecewa, letih dan sedih. Wani dah tak larat lagi nak melayan karenah semua kat sekeliling Wani lagi. Semua nak ikut cakap diorang, diorang??? Wani dah banyak mengalah dengan diorang,Jat. Hati ni dah letih dan sakit disebabkan itu. Wani dah letih bila gaduh jew, orang akan cakap Wani la punca segala2nya, walhal, Wani bkn jenis yang sebegitu. Tak taula, if Aizat pun fikir Wani mcm tu. If Aizat pun pikir yang sama, memang tak boleh cakap apa la. Kiranya Aizat oun sama dengan oran lain.

Then, I would really hate myself. I really hate myself now. I can’t live anymore or even I can’t take a breath at all. I’m just not to good to everybody. Wani tak tau kenapa semua ni terjadi pada Wani. Jat nak tau, Wani nak beli makan pun susah kat sini. Bila order makan, if perempuan cantik order later pun, the guys will give her first than me. Padahal, I’m asking for the food first. Why Diz kind of thing happen to me? Tak cantik sangat ke Wani ni? Nak minta something nak buat something, everything they will give to perempuan cantik first than me.

I just can’t help myself. Wani tak tau nak wat mcm mana lagi. May be, I’ve been rejected by you because of the same DAMN thing? If yes, Wani pun tak tau nak cakap apa lagi dari terus berlari dan menyorokkan diri dalam bilik yang gelap. Wani dah tak larat nak layan semua ni…

I need you by myside, Jat. I REALLY2 need your support. I’m too tired of this kind of SHIT anymore. Wani nak Aizat bagi semangat and sokongan macam dulu. If you were beside me, I need your arm, hug me to calm me down, I need your shoulder to cry, I need your words to make me smile. Although sejujurnya sometimes, I not quite understand your jokes, but I enjoy being with you forever, Aizat. FOREVER!!!

That’s all from me now. Take care.

Ps I LOVE YOU

Nurul Syazwani Bt Sohahuddin
24 March 2010_Wednesday-11:25AM